Before the NDE, The Nacre God’s life was a whirlwind of intense spiritual practice and exploration. From his early twenties, he threw himself into extreme rituals that many would consider the hallmark of spiritual ascension. He undertook rigorous disciplines—semen retention, fasting for 40 days like the figures of Adam, Moses, and Jesus, long hours of meditation, prayer, and complete isolation from worldly desires. He was devoted to purifying his body and mind, believing that through these extreme efforts, he could achieve a divine state of being.
During this period, The Nacre God felt a profound connection to something greater than himself. There were ecstatic moments when reality itself seemed to bend at his will—self-healing, astral travel, and reality manipulation became second nature to him. He experienced a euphoria that lasted well over a year, where he lived in a state of constant bliss. He thought he had reached the “natural state,” a state he later described as “ultra instinct”—a merging of body, mind, and spirit into a singularity, where every action felt divinely guided.
However, despite these seemingly divine experiences, doubt lingered at the edges of his consciousness. What felt like cosmic truths at the time—manifestations, god-body states, and the I AM—were later exposed as illusions. These experiences, profound as they were, now seem like elaborate tricks of his brain, rooted not in some cosmic truth but in a biological mechanism—nothing more than neurochemical reactions, firing neurons, and a body pushing itself to its limits.
When his NDE occurred, it shattered everything he thought he knew. The spiritual highs and profound realizations he had achieved should have, according to any spiritual tradition, only deepened his connection to the divine. But something went completely off course. Unlike most who emerge from an NDE with heightened spirituality, The Nacre God came out the other side with a radical and completely opposite view. He realized, with a stark clarity, that everything he had experienced before the NDE was a delusion, an elaborate performance of his mind to keep him trapped in the spiritual scam.
The NDE itself was a purely physical event—the body literally stopped, clinically died, and came back. But what was truly remarkable was not the NDE itself but the realizations that followed. Instead of being a gateway to spiritual enlightenment, as most would expect, it was the ultimate wake-up call that obliterated every last shred of belief in spirituality. In that moment, he saw the entire concept of enlightenment for what it truly was—a massive hoax, a scam perpetuated by spiritual systems and teachers to keep people chasing an illusion that doesn’t exist.
He came to understand that the notion of enlightenment is not just a myth or unattainable; it’s a calculated deception, a con game designed to ensnare seekers and trap them in a never-ending cycle of pursuit. There is no state of spiritual liberation. There is no higher consciousness waiting to be attained. The whole framework of spirituality is a construct that exploits people’s inherent desire for meaning, using elaborate rituals and practices to perpetuate the lie that there is something to be found, when in reality, there is nothing.
Even the physiological changes that followed—the sense of detachment, the dissociation from identity, the lack of agency—were not spiritual gifts, but biological adaptations. He no longer saw these changes as something divine, but as proof that the body and mind are just machines, acting out their programming. He rejected any notion of free will, soul, or spirit, realizing that humans are simply automatons, driven by predetermined biological and neurological forces.
The spiritual practices that once seemed to elevate him were, in hindsight, just another part of this biological process—stimulating certain brain functions, altering his neurochemistry, but ultimately meaningless. If anything, his survival of these extreme practices and the fact that they didn’t lock him into deeper spiritual delusion was sheer luck. His biology somehow shielded him from the trap that so many others fall into. In this sense, he considered himself lucky, for while others continued to chase the false promises of spiritual enlightenment, he was able to see through the entire façade.
The Nacre God’s realizations after the NDE were uncompromising: there is no God, no soul, no mind, no free will, and no freedom of choice. All human experiences, no matter how profound, are second-hand and completely worthless. What he experienced was not spiritual awakening or liberation but the simple dissolution of all illusions. In essence, his biology rejected the spiritual con and pushed him to a unique breaking point—a breaking point where he realized there is nothing to be found because there is nothing there.
Life simply is. There is no grand narrative, no hidden purpose, no divine plan. All the teachings, methods, and paths were nothing but cloaks and outer forms, hiding the reality that life operates purely on biological mechanisms. Spirituality, enlightenment, and all the stories of liberation are nothing but well-crafted lies.
And so, The Nacre God stands as a testament to a rare and radical realization: that enlightenment is not the end goal of human existence but a mirage, a false promise that leads nowhere. There is no higher state to attain, no soul to save, no self to dissolve—just life, as it is, stripped of all delusion.